Life, Loss, Frustration

This will be a short one. I can't say much, because I really just don't know the answers myself.

This was the 5th and 6th miscarriage since we had Fiona in July 2008. It came by surprise. Surprise that we were pregnant. Then guessing we were 10 weeks 6 days along on Wednesday, September 15th. And we were. We were also 6 weeks and 3 days along and didn't know it. I hear this can happen, rarely, but it does happen.

Tuesday September 14th, we began our miscarriage journey. Wednesday we completed this journey. So we thought. Ryan was 2 hours away and I wouldn't see him til the weekend. I'm thankful his mother was here to keep Fiona while I was in and out of the hospital that week.

Friday September 17th, I went into the OB, and left with some shocking hope. We were still pregnant. 6 weeks and 3 days pregnant. What a shock.

It was a short lived hope. By that night, I was back in the hospital ER in Alamogordo, miscarrying our second pregnancy of the week. At the end of a long night, Ryan helped me to the car after a DNC. This is the surgery where the doctor assists in completing the miscarriage. I spent the next week in slight pain, nothing compared to the pain I felt from the 14th to the 18th.

I don't know what God has in store for my family, but I know it must be grand. He holds such a mansion of babies waiting for Ryan and I! In the next few weeks, we're hoping to have some more answers as we finally get referred to a high risk OB. Thanks to those who read this, and to all our friends and family for standing beside us through this sorrow.

We'll be back on our feet soon...

Frustration and Stress

Here's another one without pictures, as there's really not much I can post that could truly display the unsafe building we've been living in, in all it's uninhabitable glory.

To start with some good news, Ryan had his second exam on Tuesday August 17th and passed with the second highest score of the class. Out of their class of 22, four failed the test and took a remedial on Friday. We'll know pass or fail on these four on Monday. Ryan's score was 86%! He's doing so well!

Then, Friday evening, Fiona brought me a piece of paper that had obviously been slipped under our hotel room door. The managerial board of the hotel had decided Thursday that the building we're living in is a liability and unsafe for living. Therefore, they have informed us that we must vacate by August 31st. We have just under 10 days.

We still haven't had a home confirmed and when we spoke to the elder today at the church we've been visiting, he informed us that the house he said he could rent to us, he's giving to some friends who are moving down here. I can't say I'll ever understand why people promise things to one person and give them to another. This would be the second time since we started this career of Ryan's that someone or something has done that to us.

But we've put some feelers out now, and we've let more people in the church know of our dilemma and we just might find something, at least temporarily. We've also figured out the insurance thing so I can look for a doctor now.

So prayers are very much welcome as we find a place to call home, and as we try to keep the stress from getting to our daughter and to the unborn baby. Blessings to all of you!